Updated: Sep 28, 2021
You were this outspoken, unapologetic, and gentle soul growing up. A little on the weird side, but it was okay, Lol. You took some Losses young. Now you are angry, short-tempered, and quiet. Mentally always on the defense and paranoid. “Do you want to fight about it?” Right to the point. Everyone whispers, “Taee, don’t play.”
Trauma. We all experience and cope with trauma differently. Trauma comes in all kinds of shapes and sizes. It can affect you physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. It takes time to even realize you are going through something traumatic.
I was alone. Separate from my support system and the love I knew. I felt there was so much pressure to perform well on and off the court. I didn’t have time to worry about how I felt. I had to push through whatever is thrown at me. That’s what we are taught as athletes, right? Get disrespected? Turn the other cheek. Someone hit you? Don’t defend yourself. Y’all don’t get along as teammates? It's cool to talk stuff and create imaginary beef (it’s a female thing).
Not to mention, I went from being surrounded by my brothers to being surrounded by females, foreign to this energy and sensitivity. Iowa Lakes was a business trip for me. I expected everyone there to have the same mindset. That’s it, that’s all.